I wanted you so badly, I couldn’t stop thinking about being a mom.
Then I blinked, and the pregnancy test said yes! My hopes and dreams for you began right away.
And then I blinked, and you were in my arms. I remember holding you that first day, when we had to go home alone. We laid together in bed and I just stared into your blue eyes, and thanked God for giving me such a perfect gift.
And then I blinked, and it was your first day in school. I remember walking behind you because you wanted to be a big boy, but you still snuck me a big kiss on my cheek before I snapped your picture and left you to your first teachers.
And then I blinked, and I was in the stands in the school gymnasium, listening to you play the saxophone so beautifully, watching your eyes as you made such stunning music.
And then I blinked, and you turned 16. This weekend we celebrated this milestone with friends and family, we laughed and loved. You’re driving, you’re growing, you’ve become such an amazing young man. I’m so proud of you.
And I’m afraid to close my eyes.
The next time I blink, you will be off to college and a career, off to having your own family, off to making adult decisions and living your adult life. How I cherish the moments between blinks, and how I wish they could last forever.
I love you, Brett. Happy 16th Birthday.